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techdragon ([personal profile] techdragon) wrote2005-06-06 01:59 pm
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Anonymous post....

I've always been a keeper of secrets, a falling apart pirate chest filled with old memories and faces and kisses disguised as golden coins. I've seen this done, and I think I want to try it.

Please, just post anonymously (that's the only condition).

Tell me anything. A secret. Something you might have wanted to say to me. Something you might have wanted to say to someone else. A sin. A Triumph. A crush. A lust. Something. Anything. Everything. Tell me something. Give me something to ponder, exclaim over, become inspired by or even maybe cry to when I come home after the sun is beyond my sky. Share with me, and I promise, I'll share with you.

(Anonymous) 2005-06-06 12:04 pm (UTC)(link)
somedays i hate my reflection because it is not me.

(Anonymous) 2005-06-06 12:54 pm (UTC)(link)
I have a few crushes, but am afraid to say anything to them because I don't want to ruin the friendships that are there.

(Anonymous) 2005-06-06 01:02 pm (UTC)(link)
i'm not poly. i'm in a relationship. and i really want to be with somone else. someone who i absolutely cannot be involved with because of the high potential for drama.

(Anonymous) 2005-06-06 01:11 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm worried that I'm not enough.

(Anonymous) 2005-06-06 01:39 pm (UTC)(link)
I love people, in the sense that I like watching them, figuring out why they do what they do and seeing how they live life. I am also extremely empathetic and will cry for others easily. However, I also tend to be really picky when picking people I will play with sexually and even pickier about who I make romantic commitments to. I know at times this hurts people and leaves them feeling as if I feel they aren't "good enough" to play with. I agonize over this. I am "pro-sexual" and think people should feel sexually free, but freedom also means that I'm free to "not have sex" as well as free to have it and have it the way I like it. I don't want people to feel hurt, but I also don't enjoy sex as much when I'm not picky..... I over think things a lot.

(Anonymous) 2005-06-07 05:36 am (UTC)(link)
Being sexually free shouldn't mean feeling guilty if you don't have sex with people that you don't find sexy. No one should ever guilt you into sleeping with someone that doesn't appeal to you. That's not freedom.

(Anonymous) 2005-06-06 01:54 pm (UTC)(link)
If I never had sex again, it would be too soon.

(Anonymous) 2005-06-07 05:34 am (UTC)(link)
I love sex and want to have it ALL the time

(Anonymous) 2005-06-06 02:31 pm (UTC)(link)
I hate to see my life turning into the demeaning stereotype that I always knew I would be able to avoid. All of those stupid things that people do; well I wouldn't do them. My life would be better. My purpose would be clearer. I could learn/communicate/muscle my way out of the mold that is out there waiting for me.

I was wrong. It sucks. I can't. The mold is stronger than I am. Thinking I can do differently is a delusion.

(Anonymous) 2005-06-06 04:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Beyond the oldest apple trees
The waiting princess weeps
And curled around with head on knees
The bright-scaled dragon sleeps.

The prancing prince with head held high
Misunderstands the sight
He blows his horn to split the sky
Then charges in his might.

His wise horse aims him so he'll miss,
Says, "Get that princess slain!
Then gave the dragon one good kiss
To wake her up again."

(Anonymous) 2005-06-07 08:00 am (UTC)(link)
you captured my heart.

(Anonymous) 2005-06-06 05:32 pm (UTC)(link)
I hate my body.
I loathe it.
I feel as though I can never be naked in front of anyone again. I'm afraid of what they'll think of me. So anytime I'm around them, I keep my clothes on, so they won't laugh or think badly of me. I just feel so fat and grotesque compared to them. They tell me they love me and accept me as I am, but I cannot accept me. I keep my clothes on so I can keep control.
So I can't play with them, no matter how much I want to. I always make excuses of some kind to keep from having to be intimate with anyone. I figure I'm sparing them.

(Anonymous) 2005-06-07 08:20 am (UTC)(link)
I get turned off to sex by some of the things my partner thinks are sexy. Like breathing in my ear. Or tickling. Or his hand on my collarbone.

(Anonymous) 2005-06-07 03:21 pm (UTC)(link)
I really have no idea what happens next in my life, past a few months from now. I have no desire to look for a full-time job. Despite this uncertainty, I'm really happy.

(Anonymous) 2005-06-07 05:33 pm (UTC)(link)
I sometimes wonder if I will ever be happy/fulfilled sexually. I want so much all of the time, and I can't see a way to get those needs met without bringing the rest of my world crashing down.

I worry about mental illness. the line that seperates me from crazy. and I mean non-functionally crazy. the idea of losing myself in my mind is frigtheningly appealing.

(Anonymous) 2005-06-10 02:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Before we married, I thought I was way cooler/smarter than my husband-to-be.

I was wrong. Dead wrong.

(Anonymous) 2005-06-13 09:37 am (UTC)(link)
I miss the spark that my girlfriend and I had when we first got together. I know after time it kind of dies down a little. But I really miss it. I want more excitement in my life. Lately I have been having thoughts, detailed thoughts and dreams about my ex-wife and I. I don't know what to do with these thoughts. Part of me would love to call her up. But I am very afraid of doing that. Lost in love!

(Anonymous) 2005-06-27 06:12 pm (UTC)(link)
i have never orgasmed. and i worry that i never will.